Last month we were overjoyed to find out we were pregnant and expecting our third baby. It came as a complete surprise but one which were were absolutely delighted about... all four of us could not have been happier and we have loved sharing this little secret amongst ourselves and waiting for the time to tell everyone.
However, this week our little family had some very sad news. Tragically, on Monday I suffered a miscarriage. I honestly can't believe I am writing those words. What started as such excitement...
...was confirmed with blood tests and the tell-tale morning sickness for the past few weeks.
When I told my husband the good news, Nick was ecstatic ('Happier than I have ever been' were his exact words) and the girls were beyond excited. I have loved every second of being pregnant with each of my babies. It truly is the best feeling, to be carrying a precious little baby inside. Unfortunately for reasons we do not know, this little baby stopped growing.
'Mummy with a baby in her tummy' by Livvie
We are all devastated and mourning the loss of our littlest one, aged only 7 weeks.
Unfortunately we are now faced with the additional anguish of being told yesterday that I have a possible (additional? they are unsure) ectopic pregnancy; my Obstetrician has discovered something growing near my left ovary.
I will have follow-up blood tests tomorrow, which will either confirm or rule out an ectopic pregnancy. If it is, we face another terrible loss. If it is not ectopic, further investigation is needed to find out what it is. It may be a mass of varicose veins and this is what I am hoping for, although I am unsure what this means for my ovary.
There is so much more I could write, but it is all really exhausting and I feel like I am in a bit of a daze. Thank you to family and friends for your support at this time. I will update you when I can.